Everywhere and beyond!

It's just a thought.

A thought that bopped up in my mind earlier today however I tried to reason myself that this journal is fine all by itself. But...

I can't help but to think to move to another site to build a site. I mean creating a blog about my thoughts but also center on other people like sites similar like Speaking of China, Ask a Mormon Girl, or even possibly Tiger Beatdown (however a site like this is already going underway on being created). It's almost focusing my journey while at the same time on focusing on important topics.


Now I haven't created a site and I won't using my site with the same name as this journal.


It's just a thought for now because I need to put my head together on the direction this journal is going but we'll see. I do believe this may happen in 2013 but not this year it's too early for me.

Finally I've gotten interviewed by the bishop and now I'm able to teach to YW. I've gotten the resources that will help me teach the class.

Also I've been working at a clinic nearby my house and I must say it's alright. It's a bit better than at the time I was working at Kohl's because during the time I was at Kohl's I was much isolated and really didn't work with much people as I do now. Now let me say this while the shortest time with working at the clinic. On the front corner, people at the clinic must smile all the time but unfortunately while I was working next to my friend. The boss came pass us and noticed we weren't smiling (to be honest I don't like to fake my smiles and second I was too busy involve with the paper work) now I and my friend no longer allowed to be on the front counter. It's bizarre to me.

Here's a list of resources:

Additional Resources for "Following the Example of Jesus Christ" - YW Lesson 3, Manual 1

Some thoughts on 1 Peter 2:18-25 from "Following the Example of Jesus Christ" - YW Lesson 3, Manual 1

Lesson 3: Following the Example of Jesus Christ

As I stated on my previous post that I was going to teach the first lesson of the year to the YW. Well, things turn out not exactly as I had thought. I was fully prepared and had everything planned out to teach to the class. Lesson plan was in my bag with my e-book to show pictures, I also brought the song "O, My Father" for the girls to see the lyrics and use the back of the sheet to write down stuff. However when it was time to start class, the Leader of Young Women told me I can't teach. Wait, what? I was a bit taken back by this, even though I haven't prepare the all week but nonetheless I still studied the lesson and had the material for the girls to use during the class. She told me that I needed to be interview with the Bishop in order for me to teach any class with YW. And unfortunately for me, the Leader was suppose to tell me this earlier but forgotten to notify me. Whatever.

This Wednesday I was suppose to be interview with the Bishop but he somehow decided it was best to do it on this Sunday which means I'm still have no position with YW besides a stranger. Anyways me and the girls ended up making a time capsule and manage to buried it without getting got. It was a fun day at least to me that is.

I might start working on Monday so maybe I tried to update as I can because I going to working a lot this month. We'll see.

At this point I'm actually surprise I haven't died of madness and taken into a mental hospital, I guess my parents called in to find out that all spaces are full. I like Christmas but all I'm hearing lately is this:

Radio: IT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF YEAR

Commercial: DISCOUNTS DISCOUNTS 70%, 60%, 50%, 40% OFF EVERYTHING (except some stuff, sorry you gotta wait).

Neighbor: JUNGLE BELL, JUNGLE BELL, JUNGLE BELL ROCK

Sister: NO GIFT FOR CHRISTMAS IN THIS YEAR? WHAT IN THE WORLD THIS IS?

Random people: I mention ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU!!

I never realize how oblivious I am to hints. Ever since I turned eighteen which was a month ago, my mom has been bugging about my appearance and suggesting how I should look nice also I should wear make up. I do wear cosmetic however I use very minimal to appearing as if I am not wearing any make up at all. I just prefer looking a bit au naturel, to be honest.

So how does this relate to dating in any possible way? Well, I've been getting my eyebrows plucked out lately and receiving this serve from my mom's friend Rosie. One day while looking at my face she said to me that I need clean my face more often now that I am an adult. Another hint I've been picking up is since as of late my mom wants me to wear super nice clothes which I did due a $200 allowance and a distribution center for clothing were selling leftover clothes. Prior to last month my mom hardly even suggested to look super nice. She had told me in the past to not look like a hobo because I am a person who enjoys just simply wearing a tee and pants. Lastly my mom has been telling me a lot to lose weight which I should. Now you ask, how does this relate to dating? Well let me get the pieces for you to see how this comes together.

In the Church of Jesus of Latter Days, there's an organization for teenage girls called Young Women. In order for enter the Young Women, the girl must be between the ages of twelve to seventeen. This year is my last year in the Young Women organization since I started when I was twelve years old, which was six years ago.

Holy smokes, Batman! SIX YEARS ago. Unbelievable, at least to me that is.

Two weeks ago, this hit me right at my FACE. When I was in the Young Women, I was excited to leave and do practically nothing and I had this thought since I was twelve. Now graduated from the organization, I have this small regret of feeling this way. I didn't absorb my time in the YW and took into consideration that I won't have this experience again. Two weeks ago, I was approached by the second counselor in my branch. On Wednesdays, people of my branch go to church and do activities or classes. He was looking for me to go to a YSA meeting in our branch.

While at the meeting, it was just me, Suzette(a girl who I knew since I was a little girl) and Erika(knew her since I was little too). There's only guy whose a Young Adult but already has a girlfriend, probably won't participate in any Young Single Adult activities and he'd too busy with work and school.

Anyway, I felt like a fish out of water because I was in an ADULT meeting. I don't feel like an adult, I feel like seventeen year old Ashley. Though the meeting was alright, I guess that would be the most appropriate word to chose.

Today, my branch held a Christmas party which was boring to be honest. Because 1). No Santa, 2). No gifts for the children, 3). Felt like every church party that I ever been to except the Youth related activities, and lately 4). No Christmas aura or feeling to the party which lack from last year.

While sitting on a couch next to my sister and a guy Anthony(a year younger than me) and sitting on the floor while Arleth(same age) and Diana(she's thirteen and sister to Arleth). We were talking about random subjects until a guy who came back from his mission not that long ago asked us a few questions. He asked basic questions like who's eighteen and older in your branch, are going to any YSA activities (obviously to me and Artleth). It was awkward because what questions were about and we didn't know this guy very well, well most of us did but didn't knew him personally.

At one point in our conversation, me and Arleth given him our numbers for any upcoming YSA activities. Oddly enough since I didn't mention this earlier, Arleth went to a YSA dance and told us about older men at the dance which is weird. And she had to go on a "date" with a twenty-six year old man, and please note she is eighteen years old.

This is where the pieces lay, now I have date because of YSA and conforming to society. I have never been kissed or dated in my life which makes me an oddball because nowadays people my age already have more experience than me.

Well I update anything new. Also I will posting up another entry about the guys I have/had a crush on from my church.

'Til than!